Time dictated the old
man’s life. If the clocks reminded him of the hour, the Hindu calendar he
bought every year from a shop in Scott Road in Brickfields, reminded him of
time’s location in the day, the month and the year. The Panchangam,
which arrived annually by post from India with a declaration it was cleared by Customs,
informed him of cosmic time, mapped against the movements of stars and planets.
For him, a day was not
just hours of light and darkness. Each hour was shaped by celestial movements
visible only in the Panchangam. Its pages divided time according to its
terrestrial influence. There were good periods and bad periods, and he managed
the affairs of his family according to these times. He was the conductor of
their collective movements. “Not now,” he would say, looking up from the curled
pages of the almanac. “Wait until 10:30. The Kalam is not right.”
And his children,
raised under his authority, waited. They accepted his injunctions not merely
out of obedience but out of an understanding that forces existed beyond their
knowledge. If they must not walk into the rain without an umbrella, there must
also be reasons for not stepping out at a certain hour that their father
understood. If he said the haircut must happen on a Tuesday or a journey must
begin before the sun hit a certain angle, they adjusted their lives to fit the
cosmic slot he identified.
But as time progressed, the Panchangam
began to lose its grip. Life was no longer shaped by celestial rhythms but by
the schedules imposed by the state—bus and train timetables, office hours,
school bells, payment deadlines, and the fixed times of public events. Time was
no longer something to be interpreted; it was something to be obeyed. When it
came to knowledge, no one turned to the Panchangam anymore, nor to books
or a teacher’s notes. It was everywhere now, scattered into the digital ether.
Turn on a computer, type a few words, and a hundred responses appeared, maybe
thousands.
The children of his
children practised a form of polite resistance. They smiled and nodded when he
warned them of an inauspicious hour, then quietly checked their wristwatches,
calculating whether they could leave just early enough to beat the traffic but
late enough to satisfy his ritual. They moved between two worlds: the ancient
rhythms of the Panchangam and the frantic, linear demands of English‑medium
schools, which started and ended on fixed times unaltered by anything the Panchangam
said.
By the time the great‑grandchildren
arrived, the resistance had turned into a scoff. To them, time was a digital print
on a smartphone that was flat, soulless, indifferent. They were educated according
to prescribed curricula that made no mention of the Panchangam and lived
for holidays gazetted by the government and not decided by the phases of the moon.
A “good time” was a Friday night at the mall, regardless of where the planets
sat in the heavens.
As the years pressed
on, the transformations in the lives of the old man’s family came not from
changes predicted in the Panchangam but from the way life was ordered by
employment, holidays and the mundane timetables of buses and trains. We are now
untethered from time beyond the clock and calendar. Retirement, moving from
government quarters to their own homes, the incessant need to renovate their
abode, the upgrading of their cars and the pressure to educate the young
through schools and universities ordered their lives. There was also the
inevitable but quiet greying of the hair. These were changes dictated by
biology and economics and not by any grander cosmic order. We were merely aging
in a line, moving further away from the ancestral script.
Then came the cancer.
To the doctors, the tumour in the old man’s
pancreas was not foretold by any almanac but revealed by blood tests and x‑rays
showing cells that no longer obeyed the body’s script. They spoke of prognosis,
malignancy and palliative care, mapping out a timeline of inevitable decline.
They looked at their charts and saw a man running out of time.
But the old man was
looking at a different map.
While the clocks
ticked on the walls, he spent his final weeks on the edge of the bed, his frail
fingers marking dates on the Panchangam. He drew a red circle around two
dates, thirty-five days apart. As the family learnt after his death, the first
was an inauspicious day, the day he was diagnosed with the disease. The other
was the day he died, an auspicious day according to the Panchangam.
When the end came, it
was a quiet rebellion against every medical textbook. There was no gasping for
air, no thrashing against the predicted pain. He didn’t die according to the
doctor’s timeline; he died according to his own. He had seen his location in
the cosmos, found the right Tithi, and simply let go.
He left the family
with a peace that made the doctor’s predictions irrelevant. While they were
busy measuring time in seconds and minutes, he had been living in a version of
time that foretold how he would live and die.
Now, with the old man
gone, the clocks have surrendered. They no longer need to be wound because no
one is worried about the “quality” of the hour. We are “educated,” we are
“global,” and we are utterly lost. We know exactly what time it is, but we no
longer have any idea where we are in the cosmos.
